In my personal song n dance of living, I'm typically easy going and I don't mind 'turning down the Domme' when the time calls for it. I've briefly went over the Dommisive aspect of myself in the first edition of TDD http://audacityof2.blogspot.com/2010/11/forward-movement-learning-curves.html Since I two step in and out of the realms (personally and professionally). I can be a darling submissive in the right intimate setting for that special 'Alpha Male' lol. Nonetheless, I am 'normal' and I have experienced the same ups and downs of dating also.
From the gents who I've been interested in locking my eyes, mind, hips and lips (and holding my floggers) that couldn't adjust to this part of me. One of the few layers of who I am and what I do would perhaps wreck havoc with insecure ones. They either thought that they needed to be 'On' all the time and go H.A.M. (TOO hard as a mutha....) outside (much less in the bedroom). Or the ones that thought I'd try to dominate them and steal their virgin butts and not letting their guards down to simply BE in the moment sans booty piracy intrusions (literally this guy was REAL vocal about me staying away from his butt. I'm like, "hunny I know you don't get down like that" oye vey lol). I've experienced a couple of men who thought every night would be freaky rope and whip night & they could completely have their kinky way because of the Dommisive aspect of my being once I told them I was an active switch personally. I also dated someone who 'thought' he wanted me to share my tales with him, but then he would get so squeamish when I began to tell him about my work day that I stopped which inevitably led to one of the few reasons of our timely relationship demise (yes you read that right; "timely demise" lol).
Someone once asked me why I don't date within the BDSM lifestyle? I've embraced the duels of duality for over 6+ years and of course am still in it on quite a few aspects regarding my money maker & a few leisurely entertaining antics on occasion. But there are moments within my personal proclivities that I do not want to be 'On' all the time and in those kinds of relationships, the Domme is always 'On' in some way or fashion and quite frankly, as much as I enjoy it, I like my own kind of downtime where I'm not pleasurably punishing someones balls and being a Savvy Sensual Sadist. Also, there's that other perplexing complexity of cultural relations. I have a deep love for black men and unfortunately, there are many 'straight laced' men that I happen to be attracted to who aren't interested in venturing at side of the fence for a plethora of understandable reasons pertaining to long held stigmas within human sexuality and how race plays its part (collars and whips being one of my favorite things to do amongst other things).
But I don't want to make this a 'woe is me I can't find a man' tale because that is SO not the case for me personally contrary to certain 'public status reports' generally typing. I can admit that I come with my own loving complexities and bullshit like everyone else and it's quite a bit of work to Dominate/Discipline myself first along with my intention of dealing with someone else (personally and/or professionally). Or as a friend affectionately said, "Aura you're a real treat but you're not a simple walk in the park!" I know I've bruised & kicked a few hearts along the way hence why becoming a more responsible friend and lover in the ship of relations is something to not only think about but practice as this special Dommisive is in no rush to pop my sub collar for my chosen Dom.
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Delightful Disclaimer – ‘The Domme Diaries' will predominantly be direct adventures of Aura Dynamo. However, names, exact dates and anything else that might prove otherwise have been omitted to protect some of the 'innocent' and a few idiots.
**Downtime with 'The Domme' captured by 'Phant' for Phantom Graffics**
